iFriends

Friendships between women include emotional support. Romantic relationships are love and sex and expectations. Internet and platonic friendships are pretty much just about "You are an interesting person." Which kind of rocks.

Sad Baby Love

Sad news. A girl I am aware of from the internet had a miscarriage. I feel bad for her but we don't really communicate so it wouldn't be appropriate to delurk now. But I don't feel too bad that I know. The TMI-ness is okay with me. It's an issue people should be aware of. As much as breast cancer. If we're not going to have an actual village, at least there's a virtual village. I know a lot of people who have had trouble with fertility and felt soul-crushing shame over it. It's good that people are aware that it's hit or miss. Even in this day and age, this is how life is. Procreation is a humongous life issue. I've had a sneaking shadow of babylust stalking me for months. Good times.

Mysterious Ticking Noise

The Better to Hear You With

I got some advice from a new friend: Try to pay attention. Pay special attention to anything that strikes you as interesting, anything that strikes you as wrong, anything you get judgemental about.

Really try to listen. Especially when anyone makes an effort to tell you something, it's because they think you need to know. Try to play angel's advocate and see how those ideas fit.

I'm supposed to meditate on things but that sounds complicated so I'll just think about it. : )

Superpower of Sleep

I used to wake up with answers. I lost that ability for a while but it's coming back. The trick is to go to bed thinking.

I realized that "I am like my Dad, I am nothing like my Mom." is not true. Things are different than I thought they were.

Almost Perficter

I misunderstood what perfectionism was. I thought it was a condition of people who were great and just trying to get over the hump. But it's also the condition of people who are average but feel bad about it.

When I decided the difference between right and wrong, being a good girl I picked the BEST. 'For grades I'm going to get A's. I'm going to work really hard and always give 110%'

Looking at my values, I have extremely uneven segments of good and bad. Good is a little tiny strip at the top and bad is everything else. Sometimes, if I work really hard I can meet my standards. But most of the time I can't. Surprise: Failure.

The insidious thing is: bad is so huge that if you go bad, you could do almost anything.

JPop

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