Avett Bros

I just discovered this band and really like this song.

School of Hard Rocks

Yes, I know what an idiot I've sounded like this week. I'm so pretty, la di da di da di da...

One of my sons didn't like baths so I never told him to get ready for his bath, I always asked him if he wanted "Bubbles or No Bubbles". Well, duh, Mom, of course I want Bubbles! So it was a little trick. I feel like I fell for a trick...

I am just so angry. I can't believe I'm angry. I am just steaming. This is not the way I wanted anything to turn out. I am so disappointed. And mad.

I am crying all the time. My friend stumbled upon me and it's like okay, I'll answer your question, but first you must chit-chat with me and cheer me up because I need it and you are just lucky I guess... I don't want to be "that person" people avoid because they are a crap-trap. Grrrrr!!!

I wish I was a guy because I bet I'd be able to get more work done fuming than crying. I put a picture of a jar of rocks on my computer so I can try to get the big stuff done before the piddly stuff. Grrrrr!!! Stupid big stuff...

But at least I've discovered yet another way I have my wires crossed. It's really interesting. Like love/money, sex/security and now anger/pride. Good to know. How else would I learn this sh*t?

And I think my only coping mechanism for anger is dressing like a rock star. How f'ing stupid is that? Today I am wearing a navy blue and grey leopard print silk blouse. I wonder what I can wear tomorrow??? You should have seen me when I had to work 18 hour days. I had actual studs and sparkles. Yeah. "I'm my own person, you stupid bad situation! And I rebel, slightly, against propriety!"

Cousin "It" --Or Bust?

While I was at the "eye doctors"... Okay it was at Wal-Mart. They have extended hours, take my insurance and give me the most thorough eye exam I've ever had. Okay? (The eye doctor commutes from China every day.)

I almost cut off my hair. I'd heard the comment, if I cut my hair, he wouldn't even like me at all. And that mantra was ringing in my ears like a bad TV show. ...Really?

So, being in a super reactionary mood, I was thinking about stopping over to "Super Saver Cuts" or whatever they call it and getting a bob...

Luckily, I ran into an old friend from high school who was waiting for his brother, talked for a while and forgot all about it.

Maybe God wants me to have long hair as my Samson power?

Herrings Are Red

I fell in a "hole" and was depressed again for a few days. I am so happy I am not as stupid as I used to be.

How did this get to be about my looks? Are you serious? Now?

"Now" for 2 reasons: 1. I am in a whole new decade and I do not get to/have to compete with 30 year olds. 2. I am actually better than I've been in several years.

I have lost 40 lbs in the last 4 months and I am still going. I feel 1000% healthier than this time last year when I was still using a walker to get around after my surgery.

I am almost semi-hot for those who are really bad with numbers. I can go many places and be the hottest chick there... Not sure where I put that list of places... And I am either way cuter than I appear in pictures or really good at flirting with mirrors. (Hey, Baby! ; )

I think my career as a super model may be coming to an end. Wait, what?

Peer Pressure

I spent the day at work yesterday in contacts.

I had an eye doctor appointment the other night. I had a big marred spot on my glasses that has been driving me crazy for over a month. It will not be rubbed away and keeps getting worse. So the eye doctor said, well if you can wear contacts, I can give you a free trial pair and that will get you through.

Last time I wore contacts was at the last Jill in the Box show at Mickey Finn's on April 1st 2006. It was like peering through burning shards of torture.

So I told the doctor, "Sure."

Butterfly

I wish I had a butterfly magnet for my filing cabinet.

My Dad

Here's me with my Dad last week!