Peer Pressure

I spent the day at work yesterday in contacts.

I had an eye doctor appointment the other night. I had a big marred spot on my glasses that has been driving me crazy for over a month. It will not be rubbed away and keeps getting worse. So the eye doctor said, well if you can wear contacts, I can give you a free trial pair and that will get you through.

Last time I wore contacts was at the last Jill in the Box show at Mickey Finn's on April 1st 2006. It was like peering through burning shards of torture.

So I told the doctor, "Sure."

Butterfly

I wish I had a butterfly magnet for my filing cabinet.

My Dad

Here's me with my Dad last week!

not actually

Do not be alarmed. I do not act on every feeling I have. I have beautiful awesome babies who I want to see grown up! : )

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Funniest thing that ever happened: When I was a bummed out teenager, the lady at the suicide hotline told me "You can't call just to chat!"

Wringer

I just had the most awful weekend. My only major accomplishments were going to the grocery store and helping my mom. I didn't get any housework done or my taxes done. I didn't even get to see my Dad.

I had 6 visits to 'help me' and 'hash this out'. Last night I was finally convinced again that I am old fat ugly mentally ill weird strange and no one will ever want me. God please help me I can't live like this. ... I just want to die!

Candide

I finally finished this book!

Spoiler alert!






Everything turned out for the best after all.

Me-

Okay, so the joke, a planned update to my earlier post, was supposed to be "Those services cost extra, so we just talked instead..." But yeah, no, it was like that. But the surprise was the torture wasn't just for me. So, I've got that going for me.

Thank goodness my friend Pam was there for me this evening. She gave me a present, a journal. It's Hokusai "The Great Wave". I have this magnet on my filing cabinet at work. I take that as a good sign.

I learned a new prayer: "Dear God, Whatever. Amen." : )